Early Morning

It’s 4:45 AM.  I’ve been awake for a couple of hours now.   I went to bed around midnight but a weird dream woke me up.  I don’t often remember dreams.  This time I was walking back to my house at night with some teen age kids.  I think I’m a teacher.  We’re coming back from the dock or a shoreline.  I felt something pulling on the sleeve of my hoodie.  I turn around and see my sleeve being pulled back to a gravestone.

It’s at least 100 feet away.  I pull my sleeve back and this girl shows up holding on to my sleeve.  She’s in her teens and doesn’t say anything.  I keep walking and trying to shoo her away.  I think I try to stand between her and the kid I’m walking with.  We start making menacing gestures towards each other.  That’s when I woke up.

It’s still dark outside.  I’m not sure if I want to walk around the park now.  The joggers and dog walkers aren’t out yet.  I think I’ll just slowly get ready for the day.  I know I’ll need a few cups of coffee today.


Keep On Trying

Lately a few people that I know have found jobs.  We all go to the same job counseling company and it’s good that they have landed.  Some are from a networking group that meet weekly.  I know how hard they’ve worked and the struggles they’ve gone through.

As for me, I have to continue to stay focus and not get complacent.  It’s so easy to take teh foot off the gas pedal. I just have to continue sharpening my resume, improving my networking, honing my interview skills and be more comfortable marketing myself.

But if any of you want to fork over a few hundred grand (Canadian), I would be okay with that too.

On an unrelated note, I sent a note to a friend of mine who has stomach cancer.  I just wanted to let him know I was still thinking of him.  He replied back and is scheduled for 8 rounds of chemo and surgery afterwards.  A week later, he sent me a photo of him with his bald head.  He’s still smiling with his wife behind him.  He told me it’s all in God’s hands now.  I hope he’ll be able to defy the odds and pull through.

Photo dump

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted pictures.  I’ve been taking pictures for ages but I don’t think I’ve improved my skills.  I think like any skill, I need to keep learning.  Sometimes things happen too fast and I’ve forgotten to change a setting in my camera or to hold my camera very still.  So I end up with an underexposed shot or a blurry shot.

  1.  From ArtScience Museum in Singapore (2016)

Singapore ArtSience Museum (2016)

2.  From Marina Bay gardens in Singapore (2016)


3.  Some guy from Taipei’s Pride Parade in 2016.  There were quite a few folks lining up to take his picture when he took off his tshirt. IMG_9779

4.  Vendor from night market in Kenting (2016).  IMG_7796

5.  Canada 150 CF-18 Hornet (demo) coming in for landing at Pearson Airport in Toronto after performing at the airshow.  (2017)IMG_1922

6.  F15 Eagle from Louisiana Air National Guard taking off at the London Air Show (2017).


Ok – enough procrastinating.  I better make dinner and get back to finishing off a resume for a job application!


Light My Fire

I saw this the other day and it struck a chord.

“Day one or one day?”

Will today be Day One of a consistent action plan to get to your new goal?  Or will it be “One day, I’ll get to it.”

I used to read a lot of business / motivation books early in my career.  Some of it was was probably fluff, but I didn’t care.  I just read to learn as much as I could.  I want to go back and rediscover the spark I had. I have no plans to be an executive or CEO of some company.  But I still want to make a meaningful contribution in whatever job I do.

The other day I attended a free webinar.  It was designed to sell you more stuff at the end.  But I got what I needed.  It reminded me to take responsibility for where I am in my life and to develop and execute a consistent action plan to move forward towards my goals.  The 2 presenters also warned against being complacent.  We always like to fall back to our comfort zone.

For me, it’s time to really focus on what I need to do to restart my career.  I should let doubt, negative emotions, distractions get in my way.

Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff

It’s one of those days.  I had a lot of trouble signing on to LinkedIn using their 2 step verification process.  When I sign in, I get a text message with a 6 digit code on my phone so I can complete the sign in.  Today, that number didn’t show up until much later.  By the time I get it, I think it exceeded the time limit.  I thought it was a problem with my phone so I rebooted it.  I checked LinkedIn help and there isn’t a help desk.  I rebooted my laptop and forgot to save a document.  I tweeted LinkedIn.   I think the problem is with my carrier.  I scoured the internet to see if there was a problem.  Finally on the 10th or 11th time, I got in. Time lost – 1 hour.  In hindsight, I could have done something else.  But I was worried there was something wrong with my account.

It’s small stuff like this that seems to throw my day off.

p.s. has anyone had cortisone injections before?  I’m curious what your experience was and any side effects or long term effects.


My Heart is Like an Open Highway…

I have good days and bad days.  Being out of work makes those bad days worse than they used to be.  I do recover.  Sometimes it just takes a walk on a nice sunny day; reading a piece of writing; admiring a wonderful picture; listening to uplifting music or eating good food.  But it takes longer now and I am feeling more vulnerable.

I’m not looking for sympathy.  I just wished there was a way to rebound faster.  I need to get moving with life.


Chickpea Curry

The recent food pics on my feed had me hungry.  I’ve also been cutting back a bit on my carbs but I just had the cravings for rice this week.  I decided to whip up some chickpea curry.  I don’t have detailed pictures.

I chopped up 2 large onions into quarters and sauteed them with a bit of salt and pepper.  They eventually break up when they cook so I wasn’t too worried.  Once it started to turn translucent, I added some 2 carrots (stew sized chunks), 3 potatoes (chunks) and 1 red pepper.  I wanted to add a bit of sweetness to the curry that’s why I used red pepper and carrots.   I also threw in some minced garlic and 1 can of chickpeas (rinsed).  I had some grape tomatoes so I threw some of those in too.  I cooked all the veggies for awhile until it started to stick to the bottom.

I cleared a spot in the pot, added a bit of oil and threw in some cumin powder. I let that cook for a bit in the oil  and then stirred it until all the vegetable were coated with it.  I then added 2 or 3 spoons of curry paste and 1 can of coconut milk (I used a reduced fat version).  I also added some sugar (I had a box of rock sugar so I just threw in a chunk).  Finally I added some water, a bit of salt and then let it simmer until everything was nice and soft.


I made enough for several meals.  The next night I decided to add some ground chicken.  I marinated the meat in sesame seed oil, soy sauce, garlic, ginger, pepper and corn starch.  I  browned it and when it was cooked, I added it to the chickpea curry that was reheating on the stove.  I had a lot of left over rice so I made a very simple fried rice with spring onions and garlic.


Zero points for photography but the food was decent.