It’s 4:45 AM. I’ve been awake for a couple of hours now. I went to bed around midnight but a weird dream woke me up. I don’t often remember dreams. This time I was walking back to my house at night with some teen age kids. I think I’m a teacher. We’re coming back from the dock or a shoreline. I felt something pulling on the sleeve of my hoodie. I turn around and see my sleeve being pulled back to a gravestone.
It’s at least 100 feet away. I pull my sleeve back and this girl shows up holding on to my sleeve. She’s in her teens and doesn’t say anything. I keep walking and trying to shoo her away. I think I try to stand between her and the kid I’m walking with. We start making menacing gestures towards each other. That’s when I woke up.
It’s still dark outside. I’m not sure if I want to walk around the park now. The joggers and dog walkers aren’t out yet. I think I’ll just slowly get ready for the day. I know I’ll need a few cups of coffee today.
The other night, something odd happened as I was about to sleep. I turned off the light beside my bed. The only other light is a faint orange glow from the on/off switch of a powerbar at the floor. I closed my eyes and I saw splashes of colours moving around. There were silhouettes of something short and worm like moving around. I thought I was already in a half awake / half asleep dream world. I opened my eyes and saw darkness. I closed it and all those colours appeared again. I repeated it several times with the same result.
Shortly afterwards, I fell asleep. The next night, those colours appeared again but were almost bleached out. They never showed up again.
Hopefully I’m not going crazy.
I spent the night at the emergency room of my neighbourhood hospital. The hospital wasn’t far from my home and while I could have walked, I decided to take a cab. Besides it was already past midnight. The front door of the hospital was already closed when I got there so I went into the Emergency Room. I’ve been here a few times before so I knew what to expect.
Within minutes, they triaged me, had my EKG done, got my paperwork done and led me past the patients waiting to get in. Some were on stretchers – their ambulance attendants waiting patiently with them. Heart problems gets you front of the line access to the ER.
The rest of the night was uneventful as they tried to figure out what I had. Basically my heart started to race although it didn’t go as fast when I had previous problems with it. The staff was good to me and patiently explained what was going on. They were hesitant to give me the same medication as before because the symptoms exactly fit what I had before. I had a bit of time to chat with a nurse. When he found out I was in IT, he told me his family was all in IT except for him. I told him he was the smart one. We chatted a bit about travel and his work. He had an easy going manner and a good sense of humour which helped to put me at ease. I complimented him on that.
The ER was busy. A man was swearing loudly. The woman beside me had a stroke. Another patient across from the hallway asked for a bedpan. The bed I was on was narrow. Another guy wanted water because he was very thirsty and got angry when he couldn’t have any. Sometime in the middle of the night, the doctors decided to simply give me a double dose of a medication I was currently taking. It took several hours for the meds to work. Before I left, they told me they would follow up on me. I got out around 6AM.
The sky was still dark and the air was cool. The 2 coffee shops on the corner were just getting busy. I passed by a deserted park on the other side of the street. The elderly Chinese women haven’t come out yet for their Tai Chi exercises. A skunk wandered out from the park to the edge of the sidewalk. It kept walking in the same direction. I kept my eye on it just in case it tried to cross the street to say hi to me.
I took a nap later in the morning. My sleep patterns were all messed up. I made a couple of appointments, did some chores and just took it easy for the day. J came by for dinner. I feel fine now but I need to find out what caused this.
Me: Come to bed with me, don’t play hard to get again. I love to wrap my hands around you.
Sleep: You slave – keep begging.
Me: You’re my master and you own me.
Sleep: That’s a good start but you’re not worthy of my company. I want you to spill secrets.
Me: You already know my secrets.
Sleep: But your readers don’t. Hahaha…
Me: They know me already.
Sleep: But not those deep, dark secrets. Well, if you don’t want my company then I have other things to do.
Me: You prick, I’m taking my meds.
Sleep: No you won’t. You need to get up early and you have a busy day.
Me: I’ll get a couple of espressos.
Sleep: You’ll still be groggy. Just spill some secrets and I’ll be get in bed with you. Just close your eyes and imagine how delicious I am.
This is the kind of crap I go through most nights. No secrets yet… maybe another time. But what would you like to know?
My body has been out of rhythm for awhile now. I’ve had foot problems since my 20s and had to wear orthotics to address pronation problems my flat feet. Now I’ve got some pain in one of the joints of my second toe (capsulitis). I had it last year but it went away when I got new orthotics and new shoes. My podiatrist suggested getting new shoes again with more cushioning in the midsole and less toe lift. The orthotics are still in decent shape. It can be painful walking sometimes and unlike last summer, my daily morning walks has stopped and my weight is slowly climbing back up. It’s just so frustrating.
My shoulder and thumb are slowly healing. Once it fully heals, I can start lifting some weights. I had an eye infection (stye) but thanks to some antibiotic eye drops, this is now going away. I also have a bit of a stomach flu but it was mild compared to the food poisoning I picked up Singapore. Hopefully it be gone by the weekend.
I need to find the fountain of youth.
I’ve visited my chiropractor twice recently. My back was giving me some problems and I also have pain in my shoulder and thumb. My doctor told me to get some physiotherapy. Since I was seeing my chiropractor about my stiff back, I showed him the diagnosis from my doctor and asked if he could also help. So my chiropractor worked on my back, shoulders and thumb for about 45 mins.
It’s always a bit awkward for me to see him. He’s young, Chinese, incredibly good looking, muscular and always looks like he just stepped out of a fashion shoot. I try not to tense up when he touches me. He held my hand while he worked on my thumb which made me swoon a bit. While he was holding my hand and making small talk, he mentioned an upcoming vacation with his girl friend. I think this is what straight guys do to make sure there are no “misunderstandings”.
a date an appointment with him again this week. On a more serious note, I hope my shoulder will heal. I can’t figure out what I did to injure it though.
I jammed my thumb some months ago and it still hasn’t fully recovered. I feel it when I’m trying to hold something heavy like a pot or a wok. I’ve tried pulling it on it to see if it would reseat itself but that didn’t work. My shoulder (mostly the left shoulder) screams in pain if I pull it back. I have no idea what I did to it. Maybe carrying a 15 lb knapsack doesn’t help. Then there is pain in the main joint of my second toe. It’s mostly my left foot but my right foot has it too. My podiatrist diagnosed it as capsulitis. I wear sensible shoes and use a cream to help reduce the pain. I already wear orthotics because of my flat feet. If this gets worse then I have to get injections. Ugh.
If you see someone with a big head, walking with a limp and his left arm dangling, please buy him a beer.
I’m getting old.