I don’t like this time of the year. It’s dark when I wake up and it’s dark before I even finish work. Lately it’s been overcast and cloudy. The gloomy days intensifies the feeling of doom. Work continues to stress me out. A couple of weeks ago, I was up at night watching the clock slowly moving after 2 AM. I took a pill to help me sleep. It’s the first time I’ve done this in a weekday. But I knew I would have probably stayed up till 4. I did the same thing the next night.
There aren’t a lot of other decent opportunities internally. What I’ve heard, is that my job is being phased out. It’s already happened in other divisions. We’re not even sure what, if any, severance pay we may be getting. It would be nice to have a bit more of a cushion as job hunting isn’t the greatest right now.
Yesterday, I was asked to help out with another project. I found out the team meets every morning (conference call) at 5 AM. They picked this time so people could get on the call for an hour and then go to work or drive their kids to school. They also wanted to make sure those people who work directly with the customers can continue to do so uninterrupted. But sanity prevailed and they switched back to a better time (8AM) just I joined the team.
There’s goodness in all of this. I’m convinced of it. It’s the only thing that’s keeping my hopes up.